Living Your Life Without Parent

It's a different kind of pain if you lose a parent or an absent parent.

Where do I start? You sit up at night and wonder if there's something wrong with you because every time you try, he/she pushes you away. You cry yourself to sleep cause it's a different kind of pain you wish could disappear in the blink of your eyes. You only see that parent once a year, so you try to be happy to see him/her and make the most of it, but instead, you guys argue most of the time, and she pushes you away. You wish you could jump off a cliff that time, but you have siblings to worry about to be there for. You want to burst into tears, but you don't. You wanna talk to someone about it, but they won't understand because they didn't experience it. You pray to God that things will be different, but no change. It's not God's fault he can't help people who don't want to change. Maybe it was for the best. 

People Might Think We are Traumatic or Whatever

They would understand how we break down and lose ourselves if they were in our shoes. Guess what? It's not the end of the world; put a smile on your face and keep your head up; life goes on whether you like it or not. Life doesn't wait for you to heal and get back on your feet. Life has choices, and that's for you to make.